Soul rubbed raw
heart heavy with tears
lead in my veins
stalked by my fears
Wondering why
is my skin so frail
that every word pierces
like rusty old nails
Hiding in the dark
longing to be with
desperately needing freshness
yet feeling old, dry, stiff
Tears burn forth
limbs grow weak
heaviness prevails
loneliness still seeks
Nearly all of my posts end in hope, or at least have a thread of hope running through. While communicating that hope is one of the goals I’ve had for this blog since it began, I’m learning that fully inhabiting and expressing pain acknowledges that raw truth that there isn’t always visible hope. An expression of pain doesn’t always end with a neat, happy resolution. Sometimes it just confesses the darkness and despair felt in that moment.
This poem was written some time ago, but I share it to encourage you not to stifle your emotions or bottle up your feelings. Deep, strong emotions don’t just go away. Find a healthy way to express them that works for you, whether that’s poetry or some other form of creative writing, art, sculpture, music, dance or just talking to a friend.
Be honest. Be raw.
Rage if you need to. Weep if you need to.
It may not make everything better, but it will be a big step toward healing. And it will be much healthier than trapping those toxic sentiments inside.